This past year has been a bit of a blur…and I’m determined to make this my last blurry year. I’ve spent my whole life being caught up in doing this, doing that, going here and going there, and I so rarely sit back and reflect on what I’m doing NOW.
Thus, my resolutions this year is to be content. To be at peace with what I have, and what I don’t have, what I’m doing, and what I’m not doing, and not to really care what anyone else thinks.
Sounds simple, right?
I wish it were.
I have a feeling this is going to be a toughie, but I’m going to make it happen. I rarely make resolutions, because I cannot stand resolving to lose weight, eat less chocolate, or buy fewer things and have it last only a month, leaving you feeling empty and weak for not being able to stick it out. My last good resolution was many years ago, when I resolved to be nice.
I know, those of you who know me are thinking, but Katy is always so nice. Well, no, I’m not, and I certainly haven’t always been like this. Those who’ve known me a long time (like, very long) know that for a long time, I was not nice. At all. To anyone. I took great pleasure in making people cry, and it came back to me big time, and in big ways. Karma’s a bitch, right? So I resolved in, I believe 2000, to be nice. And like a switch, once I’d made that shift in my head, I made it in life also. And I’ve since had much better luck in life, and been a much happier person. Sure, I’m still snarky, and I can be downright nasty, but by and large, I’m a nice person.
So, I want to be a content person as well. Why? For one, I have nothing to NOT be content about. A great husband, a sweet daughter, a fun dog, a lovely home, clothing, food, internet access: the basics. For another, not being content is costing me, in both money and time. I spend time discontent with that I have, so that I have less to appreciate what I do have. I spend money trying to fill my life with things I think might make me content, but they never do. I spend energy wishing for a larger house, a quieter life, less debt, and none of that is going to change unless I (we) change it. And, I think, the first step to that is being content with what we have.
Resolution 2009: Be Content.
What’s your resolution?